Pardon me for this drama. My point in this topic is to make people appreciate the family they have. My wife and I have no kids. But we were so happy living together that we didn't mind the lack of children. But when my wife died in 2021 that made me realize that I was alone by myself. I would wake up in the morning with no motivation. It is like I am a prisoner of my loneliness and sentimentality. Losing is part of life but until now I still cannot come to terms with the reality. Fortunately I am much better now than last year.